It is natural to search for meaning in life. Our time here does not last forever and we feel if we find meaning we could somehow contain it. We commit our time to this cause, we commit our thoughts to this cause and we even commit our money to this cause, and while we try so hard to turn the fleeting into the lasted and the happened to the destined, time continues on it's simple little way and life passes us by. In an attempt to experience, the attempt distracts us from the experience. Sometimes the happening can be far more rewarding, if we would just let it happen.
Today is Christmas, we invest a lot of expectation into Christmas, it's often said that the build up to Christmas starts sooner and sooner each year, this will of course do no better than to add to the expectation. Unfortunately i have found that expectation often leads to disappointment. Am i saying i had a disappointing Christmas? Not by any means, i ate wonderful food, drank, laughed and i consider myself very lucky to have done so, but i find just as with life the disappointment is in the passing. So as Christmas unwinds and tiredness descends the thought is prominent on my mind that Christmas won't come by for another year. So i want time to slow and now i want it to hurry when both are hopelessly out of my control, why can't i just enjoy each moment? Because i am far too self focused maybe, because while we search for meaning with a view to self gratification we miss the true meaning of loving others. Christmas is a time where relevant values are greatly advertised, a time where we remember the greatest example of love ever displayed, something which thankfully is not yet entirely forgotten in this season. But do we really hold these values or does it just make us feel better to hear or speak them? Were you anticipating the receiving or giving of presents this Christmas? Maybe we need to switch our focus, and i believe if we did, if we started focusing our efforts into making life better for others that our own life would happen and we'd be surprised how much we'd love it. Because this is not just relevant at Christmas, i find myself looking forward to something only for it to pass and leave me searching for what to next place my hope in, passing between each of these hyped up moments with so much wasted time in between. But i want that to change, i want to wake up tomorrow and each day after with an endeavour to bring joy to others and i suspect as i do joy will find me itself.
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